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I have been exceptionally unproductive recently.

I am not sure why it is, maybe I am still adjusting to our move, maybe I am not coping with the heat… maybe just lazy.

It has something to do with where my brain files tasks. If my brain files something somewhere in the “necessary to do” or “must get done soon” section, I automatically avoid that task until it becomes so embarrassing that I haven’t completed it, that I block it from my mind altogether. (Until the point the task 100%, without a doubt, must be done NOW, then I finish it in 10 minutes and all is well again… I spent so little time on Uni assignments and exam prep, I hardly remember a thing from my entire degree.)

I really must work out how to get around this little bug in my system, as it causes constant niggling guilt that I am quite sure is taking minutes off my life expectancy each day.

It is not like I am doing nothing all day, I am actually very busy thinking up new tasks to fill in the time I should have taken completing the important ones. This evening, for example, I have carefully rearranged my bookmarks folder with new sub-folders and headings and a whole new method of categorisation.

The stupid thing is, these important tasks are nearly all things that I chose for myself to do, and even look forward to doing. When the minute comes to get them done though, I procrastinate and fluff about until another day is gone.

The theory I am developing on this problem is that if I at any point notice that I don’t have a real job, and don’t even have any plans to get one, I will suddenly fall apart at the realisation that I am making little difference to society and am generally just taking up space.

Therefore, I have filled up the “have important tasks to do” bit of my brain that would be active if I had a job, with just enough “fun tasks I chose to do” tasks to fool my subconscious into believing I am gainfully employed.

Ha! I’m pretty sure I have cracked the cause, now just need to find the solution.

One thing on my necessary to do list of things is catch up with the fact that sweet Nessa with her mumblings has tagged me three times now despite the fact that I have been rudely ignoring her tags. I am sorry Nessa!

Nessa has presented me with the Rockin’ Girl Blogger Award and the Inspirational Blogger Award and has tagged me with the ‘nameless meme‘. I haven’t yet got around to actually continuing these tags myself, but have linked back to Nessa’s posts for the moment as she seems to have such great taste ;).

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