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I’m shit at being a housewife.

I’m glad to have finally worked that out I guess.

It was always nice to think up all the things I would do with all that free time, to get back to doing all the things I always wanted to do but never got around to.

Now I find all these things are far more interesting to dream about than to do. And I’m bored.

Interior design, painting, photography… I still want to surround myself with beautiful things, but the thought of filling my time with such meaningless prettiness and nothing else is turning out to be more than I can bear.

I will always wish I could cook well, paint well, write well, take amazing photographs, and hope I’ll still learn how… but it’s not enough.

Patrick has set a vague timeline that we will stay in China for about 2 years. I’m really not sure I’ll manage that.

I was looking up the masters I want to do again this evening, it’s miles past the deadline for applications but I might be able to weasel my way in if I’m lucky.

Patrick plans to be in China for 2 years, the masters is 2 years… it seems well timed.

Pity it’s in Melbourne.

Would it be weird for us to live in different countries for this long? Patrick wants to go back to Melbourne for a few months during the Chinese summer, and maybe I would get that long uni holiday at the end of the year to come back to Hefei…

Maybe I wouldn’t get in on such late notice anyway.

I checked my Chinese horoscope for answers, as that seemed as good a place as any to look at 1 in the morning on a Sunday.

I found a description of my personality that was scarily accurate:

Thank goodness for open spaces, because the Horse needs plenty of room to roam! Energetic, good with money and very fond of travel, Horses are the nomads of the Chinese Zodiac, roaming from one place or project to the next. All of this Sign’s incessant activity and searching may be to satisfy a deep-rooted desire to fit in. Paradoxically, Horses feel a simultaneous yearning for independence and freedom.

An impatient streak can lead Horses to be less than sensitive to others’ needs. These colts would rather take a situation firmly in hand as opposed to waiting for others to weigh in or come to terms with it. The lone wolf inside the Horse can at times push others away, but this also makes this Sign stronger and is a key to its success. Horses are self-reliant and, though they might lose interest fast in a tedious, nine-to-five day job, are willing to do the work necessary to get ahead.

Horses tend not to look much at the big picture; instead they just follow their whims, which can result in a trail of prematurely ended relationships, jobs, projects and so on. This Sign really knows how to motivate others, though, and get a lot accomplished.

Once they find some peace within themselves, they can curb their wandering tendencies and learn to appreciate what’s in their own backyard.

All seems quite accurate, apart from the whole “impatient” thing. Oh, wait…

Anyway, I guess I need to find some peace within myself then… I think it is telling me to just stay here

Check your own horoscope if you dare: http://chinese.astrology.com/

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